This post is a part of the upcoming “I am… ” Series by myself.
I am a massive fan of Lie To Me. I watch them on a regular basis and love picking the emotions the actors are challenged with portraying in a microsecond. I sometimes wish my mind would just settle on this one thing but alas I am not one of those kind of people. My brain starts drawing connections to my own life. Small at first, after all who normally finds things in common with criminals? The pain caused is kind of like the pain I feel from my own medical ailments, people who they don’t mean to hurt get hurt, the lack of ‘normal’ emotion in their faces due to concentration and these are just the start.
Wow looking at these things I don’t feel much different to a criminal. But wait, I am not in jail or waiting on a criminal charge so why do I feel like this? There is a very simple answer here. I feel like this because I am disabled. Not in a chair like a paraplegic or even visible like a missing limb, no. My disability is invisible so this means I am quite often seen as average. I could, for every thought, be replaced by those people in the crime shows. Replace the people the criminal minds hurt with friends and family then replace the detectives and policemen with a range of medical staff designed to help me. After all a diagnosis is almost the same as incarceration. That board with their number and name is just the same as our diagnosis label. The only difference is we are not shown the way to others like us or given meals close to us. We are not put on a register that other people can see or publicised by the papers. We are just given this label and left to flounder around in hope we will find our feet.
So you see we are alike even though we are worlds apart. This leads me to ask however what would people think if medical illnesses, both common and uncommon are displayed like the sufferers see them? Something that should be shut up before it destroys their lives and that of their family.